Pesky resolutions...

Yesterday, for the first time this year, I didn't manage 10k steps.

It felt like a failure. I broke my new year's resolution, and we haven't even finished January yet. It's not a big ask, surely, 10k steps? If I'd just been a bit more organised, I could have managed it...

But I wasn't more organised. I didn't do enough steps early in the day, and had to rush as many as I could at the end of the day. I didn't have enough time to finish them all.

I could be sad about it. To be honest, I am a little sad about it. But I've slept on it, and had a few thoughts, and I'm a little less sad than I was.

- on most of my work days last year, I did less than 5k steps

- it's a super busy time for me at the moment, with the project launch and accommodation booking for the earlier challenges ongoing and all of my university deadlines happening. I'm spending a lot of time in the car or at a desk, and that's the way things have to be at the moment

- I didn't plan properly and could have done more steps in the morning; that's a lesson learned, and we learn from our mistakes

- I still went for a walk, albeit a short one

- the reason I was tied up all afternoon and until late was because I was helping a friend with one of the deadlines. And if helping someone else isn't the best reason to miss something... What is?

The project is meant to be a happy one. It is designed to bring people together, raise awareness and money, and give me and others the opportunity to tick off some bucket list items. I'm very lucky to be doing what I'm doing, but I have other responsibilities. Yesterday, those other responsibilities had to come out on top in the end.

Mum said to me on Wednesday that I needed to slow down, or I would burn out. She was right. I'm not there yet, but I can see how easy it would be. So while I'm a little sad about not making my 10,000 steps... I am choosing to be kind to myself, learn from it, and put it behind me. I will make up those 1,102 steps today, and draw a line under it in the form of the launch plan, which is coming up next!